Bothersome.

Bothersome, indeed.
Being a girl, that is.

We compare.
We compete.
Immensely.
And, unavoidably.
(oh, you know you do it)

This only happens, please note that, when a girl you don't like, is 'better' than you.
Prettier is the worst to me.
oh, and intelligence.
And ironically, that's just what drives me- to outwit, to be prettier, skinnier, better than that person.
Oh it's ugly, but it's honest. To be better than that person is the aim.
This also comes from no respect.
I don't respect the people I don't like.


The other drive is aspiration.
When someone I really like is 'better' than I am, I aspire to be like that person.
To be healthier, fitter, prettier, better.
That person is usually someone you respect a great amount. After all, how can you possibly surround yourself with people you can't even respect?
Clearly this is a much better way to go about in life, but I think both drives are necessary.

I mean, one isn't enough to keep me going on a bad day,
and the other isn't good enough to make me stubborn enough to keep going.

xx
AJ