Conversation with an Angel.

evie`lyn says: i love you

says:
i love you too.
fact:ive never said the line 'i love you' to anyone

evie`lyn says:
fact: i've never been so infatuated with anyone in my life

says:
and i feel the same way!
okay, i feel a little less creepy now
haha at this rate, im gonna start referring to you as my wife

evie`lyn says:
id like that

says:
really?
it's so weird. i love you so much id honestly marry you, even though ive only known you for short period of time online
that's aside from the whole 'wife' thing

evie`lyn says: you give me butterflies

says:
haha i worry sometimes that you're this amazing to everyone else
you're just so... incredibly kind

evie`lyn says:
you're mine

says:
i am all yours take :)

evie`lyn says:
:D

says:
only if you dated girls... lol
but alas, i am a girl.

evie`lyn says:
i am bi :)

says:
really?!
me too :D

evie`lyn says:
<3

says:
that works out excellently
that's why i was so afraid of creeping you out, if you were straight.. some people get creeped out just for that

evie`lyn says:
not at all baby

says: (4:08:30 AM)
yayy

we can be online girlfriends

evie`lyn says: (4:09:34 AM)
yayayaya

says: (4:09:43 AM)
realllyyy?

evie`lyn says: (4:10:38 AM)
:)

says:
haha did i just ask a girl out on msn?

evie`lyn says:
i dont know did you?

says:
would you say yes if i asked you to be my girl?

evie`lyn says:
yes :D

says: (4:13:44 AM)
omg i haven't been this happy in so long

evie`lyn says: (4:16:24 AM)
i love you

says: (4:16:33 AM)
i love you more

HAHA

this made me laugh so hard.

(listen to the very end)

oh hell no.

this is for you, T.

Things I've not done.

...and some never will

Go to a school with lockers and bells
See my favorite bands live
Take a cute photo with my significant other
Stay out late with friends
Cuddle to sleep
Watch some of the most talked-about movies
Have a childhood
Love myself
Be really fit
Have a resort-fling


I'll probably add more later. I'm tired.
xx
AJ

I can handle this.

I truly dislike 80's music. *except for metal
I'm not sure why, but this made my day :)

http://www.nakidness.com/images/funny/cartoons_drawings/i_met_a_butterfly_the_other_day/

...wait, what??

Oh man. I love this.

This is what I'll be doing, sick in bed.

Insult??

Teletbubi zurück Winker =Someone who waves back at the Teletubies

Songs <3

I'm dying to know
do you do you like dreaming of things
so impossible? or only the practical
or ever the wild or waiting through all your bad bad days
just to end them with
someone you care about
and do you like making out
and long drives and brown eyes
and girls that just
don't quite fit in...
yeah do you like them?

Story Telling.

I'm watching the sun rise. It's colder than I would like to be.

But I still went out and sat outside to watch the sun rise, cigarette in hand.

What is it about cigarettes that makes me want to talk to someone about things that matter- things that just run through my mind that I want to discuss?

I sometimes get so trapped in my thoughts, I need to find some way out. Discussing helps, but it seems that things I talk about doesn't interest majority of the world. Probably because they're usually what I make of myself- self analyzing 24/7.

Everyone loves talking about themselves. Everyone wants to tell their story. Sadly, most of us won't get that chance as much as we'd like.

Personally, I like hearing other people's story, how they got here- in the telling, they skip parts of their life-intentional or not- and that makes the story more of their own. Unique. What they choose to remember, tell, and not touch alone already starts to define them for the times to come. Have you noticed?

For some people, it's the one time they get to choose. No one will force you to tell a story they have no clue exists. The story teller will choose what they say in that particular version of the story, and when they're ready, they'll add that untold story; a renewed story. They may choose never to share that story, because words escape. Telling a story can feel like having that memory erode-it gets 'renewed', because when the story is told, it adds a new scene to that story- who it was addressed to, their reaction, teller's experience in telling the story, the way story sounds out loud. It's sometimes overwhelming.

I found out someone very significant to me had passed away this spring. I only found out a month later over IM, as I am no longer at the same location as those who knew of the person. I only started to really feel anything once I said it out loud- it affected me so differently when I said it out loud, like proof that it actually happened.

I still cry on some nights, when I memories come up. Plans that were meant to be, but not in time. None of my close friends know- but that's another story.

Next time you have the chance, I encourage you to ask someone to tell you a story of their life-the way they want it to be heard.

xx

AJ

So... Birthday.. eh?

Okay, yeah. My birthday IS coming up, but these are just awesome to look at and dream about.

LOOK AT THEM!!

ahh <3

• Yes.
• Dress?
• I'd wear this out.
• Sexiest Witch Ever.
• Blue <3
• I have been dreaming about these for EVER!
• Corset <3
• Classic and so. gorgeous.
• Everyone needs a gown.

...so how does one become an Agent Provocateur model? I am SO down.

xx

AJ

How to Find Yourself.

You've probably realized by now, that this blog is more about me trying to explain myself to myself.
And that at times, I post things that makes you think I'm this or that. I am constantly psycho-analyzing me. I'm a stranger to me. I'm a pathetic being who needs constant reminders from someone that I still exist and have a significance to someone. I can't change that. I'm still trying to find myself in this ether. But really, aren't most people? They probably do it in a much more elegant manner, though.

These are the things that help me find myself when I'm really lost and no one's around to find me.

My music- especially the songs I've listened to a lot in the recent past. I probably like them for a reason. I still exist.

My passion- Acting, singing, dancing. I'm a surfing, skateboarding, longboarding, snowboarding enthusiast. Tennis. Hugging someone that means a lot to me. Reading. I can't lie about something I like, and there's no way to fake liking something as much as I do. I still exist.

Leaving my room to do something.- you know. go out to do something. anything. unplanned trips are awesome. I only learned this in the past 6 months. You might find a pretty bottle you can take home, wash, and store something in. Like body wash, or detergent. I feel awesome.

Thinking of things you wish you were, or you were more of.- I want to be sexy, not adorable. I want to be more elegant. I want to be able to sing well. I want to be more intelligent. Yeah, I know. It's probably better to concentrate on what I have instead of what I don't, but these things drive me. Gives me a purpose for the time being. I still exist.

Telling someone how much they mean to me.- This isn't something I do to help me realize I still exist. It's something I do to make sure people know how much they mean to me. People assume others know how much they mean to them too much. They don't. And even if they do, it's always nice to hear so, or get a random gift of appreciation. I don't want others to go through what I've been through. :)

xx

AJ

Constant Replay.

As in, I probably watch it too much. But I love it.

Serenade Me These.

Seriously, what girl doesn't want to be serenaded?

Hands Down-Dashboard Confessional



For You to Notice-Dashboard Confessional



In Your Eyes (I Caught fire)-The Used

YES!!

<3

Us Cancarians.

That's Right.

Things I Love Thursday.

(Technically it's Friday already, but I'm a highly non-technical person, so that's no prob. )

• Jillian Michaels: I. am. in. love. I am in love! She is such an awesome person and a trainer, I am finally back on track with fitness thanks to her radioshows, videos and more. Try it :) It's my favorite workout.
  
• Weheartit.com : I am a compulsive photo keeper on computers. Like, I have a million photos of 'things' on my laptop. This site allows me to do that, sans computer memory. Plus, you get to find some pretty sweet stuff.
• etchy.com :Crafts for sale. and you find the coolest things ever! Try searching for tutus. they are the best.
• Water. water water water. mmmmmmm.
• The sun!! Finally. I can't live without sunrays. I blame Indonesia. ahhhh <3
• Manateeeeeeeeeee!! : I laugh. I'm a little bit insane. That guy making that noise is awesome.
• On that note... watch this afterwords if you laughed.
  
• Cuddling. But seriously, who doesn't? :)

xx
AJ

Let's Talk Health.

I'm not that healthy.
I'm going to say that straight up, because otherwise I will be a hypocrite. But I'm a lot more healthy per se than a lot of people around me.

When it comes to health, I'm pretty weird, I suppose... I eat as high vegan and raw as possible, depending on my what my body wants. For instance, I'm not vegan right now because I am training a lot more than I was before trying to put on some muscle. At my point in life, it's too hard for me to get enough protein from a raw vegan source and function. (though spirulina is wicked awesome. try it.) So that's that.

What do I do for food?
I opt for, like I said, as high raw and vegan as possible. I've always loved salads (that's what I wrote down for the pre-school survey of 'favorites'... haha) so it's just like eating whatever I like- awesome. I don't eat meat, with exceptions of times when I am home- even then, very little. I love water. I love green tea, herbal tea, fresh veg/fruit juice.
But the most important thing is to eat things that are LEAST PROCESSED! I try to eliminate as much processed food as possible. because it's gross. I feel gross afterwords.
Anways,
So this is what my average day looks like;

Breakfast.
(Lately)2 boiled eggs with salt & pepper -I usually don't eat the yolk just because I never liked it.
Fruits, usually about 2 apples or oranges
As much water as I can drink
OR
about 700ml of Green Smoothie
OR
Green juice. mmmmm <3

Lunch.
A BIIG Salad.
I like to add an avocado to my salad, and am in search of something that will add 'bulk' to the salad, because I'm starting to get a bit sick of avos. I guess my body's gotten its level of whatever it was in avos that I needed.

Oooh, my current favorite is the red cabbage salad from the Renegade Health Show :)
I change it up a bit, but this is what it is.

• As much red cabbage as you want, it lasts in the fridge for a bit so you can make more than you want for lunch aswell, btw.
• A piece of ginger.
• A clove of garlic.
• Salt to taste. I use himalayan salt.
• Spirulina to taste.
  
• Nutritional yeast to taste. I guess this is processed. please don't shank me.
• Olive oil. just enough to spread around.

To assemble:
Put the red cabbage in the food processor. You can chop it up too, if you'd like. I'm just lazy sometimes, or am short for time. Process till the cabbage is about the size of your pinky nail when short.
Move to a bowl.
Process the ginger and garlic as small as you can get it. You might want to process with the cabbage.
add that to the bowl.
Add the rest of the ingredients, and mix well.
Eat and smile.

mmm.

Dinner:
If I had a big lunch, I'll just have a green smoothie.
or soup. either way.
Otherwise, I'll have a big salad again because I love it so much.
I try to keep my dinner light :)

I snack on nuts and such during the day, too.

Exercises.
I am in love with Jillian Michaels. Seriously. She is awesome.

I usually do about 15min. light weights like resistance band training or free-body weights. If I'm eager to get results, I do weight machines every 3 days or so. but that builds size.
And then I'll do cardio- if I can make myself get to the gym, I'll do the elliptical or the treadmill-I prefer the latter, but your body NEEDS variations. So sometimes, I even do those stepmaster things. When I'm home, I swim.
If I don't want to go to the gym, I'll do workoutvideos I find online, or buy (Jillian Michaels kickboxing workout is love. I love it.) DVDs.
I try to do about 6hrs of total workout in a week, sometimes more, sometimes less.
Tennis, when I'm home, I do about 2 hours a day on top of that aswell.

Mind you. I'm not always this good. with food or exercises.
but I've had a lot of people ask me what I do, so... I posted the v. basics of what I do.
hehe

xx
AJ

One Love!

Dear Sister.

Excellence

Seriously.

Just a thought...

Maybe global warming is the result of everyone thinking it exists-Law of attraction..

Quoi?

Oh, the pun.

Did anyone else laugh at the pun?
I did... haha

Mmm... studying.

I don't mind studying, to be honest.
I like that I see instant results. Though, I am guilty of being a bit of a slacker lately when it comes to such.
I've noticed that my 'studying environment' has been rather off.
Before, I'd keep my room #1 clean at all times, and that really helped me keep me in the 'ready-to-study' mode.
This year, not so much. It's rather obvious that I will need to start making a bit of a schedule for myself... mm I love planning.

Anywho. this is what I've been studying to lately.

Wow-Kylie Minogue


Explosion -C-Bool


Happy Studying, kids.
xx
AJ

Um. YES.

Club Solo.

Laugh...

Photos to go with your day?

The left cat is our new cat- We haven't named her yet; I want it to be Eddie or Mica.
mm... and so many more names.
Kale? haha

I bought this dress... I'm wearing it to my friend's grad! :)
Gotta up the workout, hey?

I made Gazpacho for lunch on Thursday.
Yummyyyyy

This would be such a good thing for dogs- I wish I could have done this for my dog.
Maybe I could have saved him then..

I told you it sparkles!

E3AFA

Sincce I don't have a freezer, and e2Live requires one, I bought the next best thing;
E3AFA!!
It's the crystal-flake form. (they didn't have the pill kind, but I don't really need the extra 'capsule' in my body anyways.) Oh, and it sparkles.
bonus.

the first time, I 'ate' it like I do with spirulina out of the bottle with a spoon.
DON'T USE METAL SPOONS!!
it flies everywhere, and seems to taste very bitter.
I was expecting a 'fishy' flavor, so that was a shock and a half! haha.

Today, after my Gaiam resistance cord workout, I made a smoothie with the 'mango' (I refuse to call them mangoes. Please send me the kinds I get them at home), spinach, spirulina and e3- so first time actually eating the e3's- and well, it's much better feeling of 'energy' you'd ever get then you would with coffee!

I love being raw. I do go off track every now and then, as well as not being 100% a lot of the times, but when do go back, it's just... you know that feeling where you think to myself 'this is exactly what I should be doing'?
that.


xx
AJ

Safeway

So it was my friend's birthday last night (exact timing is key..) and we (her and myself) went to go buy her a birthday cake for today. It was quite the adventure.
well. kind of.
just the fact that we were shopping at safeway at 11 PM was kind of fun, but more than the cake shopping, we did produce shopping for me.
I bought some exciting stuff, like mangoes and blood oranges. Lots and lots of sprouts. guess what i'll be having for lunch today? haha
I also finally found the omop (save the planet!) that I've been looking for for ages. and I most definitely mopped my room at like midnight. I'm that cool. (and yes it made a difference!)
I haven't been able to sleep well in so long it's kind of ridiculous. I'd be either awake till 2 or wake up at 2, nap during the day sometime for about 3 hours, go to bed at you know, 11, 12. depending. And I'm physically exhausted, but mentally so... busy I guess. I don't know. if it were the other way around, I'd go for a hard workout...
I just made my morning smoothie and my mango I bought yesterday is so not ripe. When I cut it open, I was just like... what? haha I guess not all mangoes are the kinds I get in Indonesia. Which, by the way, is ah-mazing. it's my favorite food, if you didn't know.

Anyways, today is one of the less fortunate days of the week, meaning I have class at eight. I have to admit that I've slept through this class pretty often, also due to being sick, but I've been doing well lately. be proud.
I kind of want to do a smoothie fast (beacuse i don't really have means to juice). I guess it'd be pretty good for my body, since it's been so ridiculous lately for it with the sleep patterns and stress and all. we'll see.
Maybe i'll just do a morning and night smoothie, and salad for lunch... which is what i'd usually have anyways except for dinner. hahaha.

okay. i should go shower so im more physically alert.
xx
VV

Mmm... Running...

So I went for a super short, super intense run this morning.
It's like, 24 minutes long, ish, but I burned something like 229 cal. if you wanted that for the reference for how intense it was.

and I am in the best mood I've been in... SO LONG.
despite the heaviness I feel due to the high-fat content I've consumed yesterday and the day before (Raw almond butter, Cheez Cake, cacao nibs...) eeeeeeeeee!!
I am bouncing off the walls!
and I just had a super yummy (but messy) breakfast :)
Nori rolls with avocados, carrots, lettuce, lemon and some Nama Shoyu.
mmmmmm...

It was messy because, well, I decided to spread the avo over the nori instead of chop it in spears... and the nori got super soggy super fast and was faling apart as I was eating it! hahaha
it was so funny, I had avocado spread and nama shoyu all over my face.

So, since I haven't done a 'Club-solo' Track in AGES. Here it is!




xx
VV

How 'Bout That Diet... eh?

So it's been a while since I've posted anything on how my raw food journey has been coming.
And that's because.... it hasn't. haha.

Well, to be more precise, I was running about 90% raw before my Christmas break, and during break, I was down to something like 60%? well yeah. And then, when I came back from break to campus, I was running on something like 40% raw if that, and eating CRAPPY foods. It was DISGUTING. (to me, anyways)
I've been really crappy lately, and last week, I was at my friend's place for a week for the reading break we had, and it was fun, but my raw food intake was like waaaay down. So I was even crappier. ewwww.
But actually, that was just what I needed to get back on track, funny enough.
For the past 4 days, I've been 95% raw, and sooo much better than before. ah <3
And now my cravings are back...
CRAVIIIINGS!!!! (rarrr!!)



xx
VV

Cravings for sprouts and cabbage is greatest right now, actually.
ahhh.

(And I just re-watched Philip McClusky's video on that... bad idea! It's only 5:03 and no stores are open!)
If anyone else's interested... here's the video! You'll WANT SPROOOUTS!
haha.

Driving directions to Honolulu, HI

2,804 mi – about 14 days 6 hours

Seattle, WA

1.	Head northeast on Broad St toward Taylor Ave N		0.5 mi
2.	Turn left at Westlake Ave N		1.6 mi
3.	Turn right at 4th Ave N		489 ft
4.	Continue on Fremont Bridge		0.2 mi
5.	Turn right at N 34th St		0.3 mi
6.	Turn right at Stone Way N		128 ft
7.	Turn left at N Northlake Way		0.2 mi
8.	Kayak across the Pacific Ocean Entering Hawaii		2,756 mi
9.	Slight right at Turtle Bay Hilton		0.1 mi
10.	Turn left at Kuilima Dr		0.5 mi
11.	Turn right at HI-83		10.5 mi
12.	Continue on Joseph P Leong Hwy		1.9 mi
13.	Slight right at HI-99/N Kamehameha Hwy Continue to follow N Kamehameha Hwy		8.6 mi
14.	Merge onto I-H2 S via the ramp to Honolulu		8.2 mi
15.	Merge onto I-H1 E		4.5 mi
16.	Take exit 13B to merge onto I-H201 E		4.7 mi
17.	Continue on I-H1 E		5.2 mi
18.	Take exit 25A for King St		0.2 mi
19.	Turn right at Waialae Ave		98 ft
20.	Continue on S King St		0.2 mi
21.	Continue on S Beretania St		20 ft

Honolulu, HI

Sponsored Links

note to self.

Barbecue Burger made with walnuts, carrots, sun-dried tomatoes, red onion, fresh cilantro, red bell pepper, topped with our home-made barbecue sauce, and sprouts, served on napa cabbage or flax bread

Songs For a Boy.

Over My Head (Cable Car) -The Fray
"And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless"

Goodnight and Go -Imogen Heap
"Skipping beats, blushing cheeks; I am struggling.
Daydreaming, bed scenes in the corner cafe,
And then I'm left in bits, recovering, tectonic tremblings.
You get me every time.

Why'd you have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you.
Must you make me laugh so much?
It's bad enough we get along so well.
Say goodnight and go."

Broken -Secondhand Serenade
"Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
Let's light up the town, scream out loud!
Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
I can see in your eyes
You're ready to break
Don't look away."

The Reason -Hoobstank
"I'm not a perfect person
There are many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
...."

Where I Stood -Missy Higgins
"Cuz I don't know, who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand, another hand upon you,
All I know is that I should

Cuz she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood"

Peachy -Missy Higgins
"It's no one's fault, it's nobody's fault that I fell on you and you on me
It's what humans do, and they pass on through but I think we can't, don't you?

No of course you don't, of course you don't
You said life is peachy without me
No of course you don't, of course you don't
You said life is peachy without me "

100 Round The Bends -Missy Higgins
"Ive found more complications like bloodhound,
So pick me up, twist me round,
And throw me all the way back down.
Cos i found my feet connected to the ceiling.
But when I jumped down, theres smiles around
And its all too easy on the ground.

So jump in my car we'll go 100 round the bends
We'll take this road till were back and started again,
Jump in my car we'll go 100 round the bends.
And we'll pretend that feeling rage is feeling real."


Fall to Pieces -(please don't shoot me) Avril Lavigne
"I looked away, then i looked back at you
you tried to say things that you can't undo
if i had my way, I'd never get over you
today is the day I pray that we'd make it through
make it through the fall
make it through it all

and I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you
I don't wanna talk about it
and i don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you
I don't wanna talk about it
cause I'm in love with you"

Do I Have Your Attention -The Blood Arm ft. Anais
"Do I have your attention,
Do I have your attention,
Did I fail to mention this situation is a mess?

Conversations never end, but maybe I'm deluded.
Do I have you attention right now?

Not yet, not yet, not yet, not yet, not yet, not yet
But I can try it again "

Lovefool -The Cardigans
"Love me love me
say that you love me
Fool me fool me
go on and fool me
Love me love me
pretend that you love me
Leave me leave me
just say that you need me"

Taking Over Me -Evanescence
"You don't remember me,
But I remember you.
I lie awake and try so hard,
Not to think of you.
But who can decide,
What they dream ?
And dream I do... "

For You to Notice -Dashboard Confessional
"I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head
Where I would impress you with every single word I said
It would come out insightful,
or brave,
or smooth,
or charming
And you'd want to call me

And I would be there every time you need me
I'd be there every time

But for now I'll look so longingly waiting
for you to want me,
for you to need me,
for you to notice me."

So Impossible -Dashboard Confessional
"I'm dying to know
do you do you like dreaming of things
so impossible or only the practical
or ever the wild or waiting through all your bad bad days
just to end them with
someone you care about
and do you like making out
and long drives and brown eyes
and guys that just
don't quite fit in
yeah do you like them"

Sally's Song
"I sense there's something in the wind
That seems like tragedy's at hand
And though I'd like to stand by him
Can't shake this feeling that I have
The worst is just around the bend

And does he notice my feelings for him?
And will he see how much he means to me?
I think it's not to be

What will become of my dear friend
Where will his actions lead us then?
Although I'd like to join the crowd
In their enthusiastic cloud
Try as I may, it doesn't last

And will we ever end up together?
No, I think not, it's never to become
For I am not the one"

Addicted -Kelly Clarkson
"I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this"

Push -Marianas Trench
"You never really wanted it
You'll settle for a bit of it
It started with a big bang (coming over everything)
And now it's coming back again

Hey don't you feel it now
My shiny side down
Hey burning brighter still
And you're getting sick
And you're feeling it"

忘れない日々 -Misia
"今 二人を 追い越した雲を
そっと 目を閉じ 瞼に焼き付けるの

忘れないで 二人が見つけた日々を
きっと他の誰かじゃ 出会えなかった日々

夢をみつめたままで いつまでも歩いていこう
たとえ他の誰かと 出会い恋しても…

写真立ての中で笑う あの頃が 二度と 戻らなくても "

So Damn Beautiful -Polaroid
"What do you think of me?
Are you quite proud of this make-believe
Curtain, that hangs around everything
You can admire in that girl
You're so damn beautiful "

You're Beautiful -James Blunt
"But it's time to face the truth
I will never be with you."

Repo! The Amazing Musical.

Huge Fan.

Dear Santa.

For Valentine's, I want
1) A Boy who

• will play me "For You To Notice", "So Impossible", and "Hands Down".
  
• wants to cuddle and wants to keep it PG-13.
• will appreciate the dumbest things I say.
• will make me cry, the way some songs do.
• won't look down on me if I sing songs from HSM. In fact, one that will join me.
• calls me 'princess' in the least degrading way possible. (not literally, but you know)
• can sing "Phantom of The Opera" with me.
• speaks emotion. not logic.
• is a vegetarian /vegan... of sort.
• will watch "The Nightmare Before Christmas" with me, over and over again.
• has class in his way of life.

2) Or super nice lingerie to make me feel better about myself.

Thanks.
xx
VV

Things I Synch With...

If time itself was his demeanour
There'd be no sunset or a glimmer of
Sunset landing on the street
I might like you better if we slept together
But there's something in your eyes that says maybe that's never
Never say never
I won't hesitate no more no more
It cannot wait. I'm sure.
There's no need to complicate. Our time is short...
Skipping beats, blushing cheeks; I am struggling.
Daydreaming, bed scenes in the corner cafe,
And then I'm left in bits, recovering, tectonic tremblings.
You get me every time.
So open your eyes child,
Let's be on our way.
Broken windows and ashes
Are guiding the way.

Keep quiet no longer,
We'll sing through the day,
Of the lives that we've lost,
And the lives we've reclaimed.
We'll have drinks, and talk about things, any excuse to stay awake with you.
Feel it
Breathe it
Believe it
And you'll be walking on air
この世界にあたしは順応　水はいらないの　あたし次第　どこで生きる?
あなたがあたしを泳がせる 水面で時々目が会う
LINKIN PARK LINKIN PARK LINKIN PARK LINKIN PARK LINKIN PARK LINKIN PARK...
All alone he turns to stone
while holding his breath half to death!
Terrified of what's inside
to save his life
he crawls like a Worm from a Bird!
Your havin a midlife crisis tying to get where I've been
Well if you want 'em that bad Ms.V
You can have 'em
So when you see me comin
You better back down
Cause I've been waitin to smack you around


....

Music Love.

Dream.

I had this crazy dream about talking to a girl who went on a juicing fast.
In it, she said she only did it for a week, but felt a huge difference...
She wasn't someone I would have expected to have know of such things, but I can't remember who it was! I wonder...


I just did yoga and am making a smoothie.
The day... is long....
xx
AJ

Let's be clear.

Putting people down does not make you Cool
Pretending to know the world does not make you Smart
Being 'always right' does not mean You are.
Picking at the 'word' and its use doesn't make you a Know-it-all
Ignoring emotionals contents doesn't equal Being 'logical' and 'correct'
Not giving people time to talk doesn't make it that You are correct; thus the other person doesn't have anything to say
Life is not about Proving others wrong

and of all,
JUDGING is so not OKAY!


No. None of these are right.
None of these things are 'okay'.

I'm particularily cross at some people at this, but this makes me realize; these things, really are NOT, okay wit hme.
it bothers me. Mainly because it robs the other person of their rights.
Whether it be their dignity, pride, self-worth, belief, their point, their view, their way of life!
We are all given the rights to these things. Freely having different view?
So allowed.
So welcome.
So refreshing!

We cannot suppress people who doesn't necessarily have the same ideas as us, just because it's not what we think!
Unless it offends you, you shouldn't get to say anything negative about them.
Even if it does offend you, perhaps you should just keep it at letting them know that you're not comfortable with their way of expressing such things.
But never should anyone be in an argument about people's morals or views.
It doesn't work that way.

Some people have no morals.
Some people have strange morals.
Some people have the morals of which the society made.
Whatever it is you believe in, it's your right to believe it.
Don't let anyone attack you, offend you, rob you of these rights.
I've been through it too many times, it just doesn't work.

xx
VV