A Change.

Lately, I've noticed a tremendous change in myself-it isn't something I can point out, per se, but is something very significant. I suspect it has much to do with the new lifestyle I have decided to follow, and my journey in reaching that decision. I feel much more grounded. And much more in control of my life. In fact, this is the first time I actively understand that I am, in fact, in control.
Looking back, this has been an amazing 2 months for my personal growth, spiritually. I have truly began to mend my relationship with myself, one that deserves some serious apology to self as well as attention. I have grown conscious of many things I hadn't even noticed the existence of. I have made some true relationships with people who I 'connect' with on a deeper level. I have learned to speak up for myself. I have come to realize that that happiness isn't to be found; it is already here.
The things that didn't make sense to me before this time, I now have a better understanding of. Now I realize that everything that had happened in the past were truly meant to be. The fact that 'everything happens for a reason' truly makes sense to me now. I don't believe in 'coincidences' any more. I understand the world better. And myself.

There are so many things I want to say to the world, but can't express. But it has become clear to me that I needn't be frustrated about that- there are people, people whom you really 'connect' with, who will understand without explanation. One of my most valued relationship has been quite limited to the internet- yet she understands me better than any others I know.

I have learned to appreciate so many things I didn't see before. And most of these have become clear to me in the past 2 weeks I had off for break.
This is one of the best holidays I've had yet.

xx
AJ